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IMPORTANT NOTICE REGARDING TIMELINE ALTERATIONS

As mentioned in my screaming earlier, I have altered the timeline of “the prank” and the reasons for it have been covered multiple times on my Severus Snape blog. The most in depth of which can be found here; however, I will be copying over the relevant portion and modifying it with Sirius’ POV of matters and why I am keeping this change consistent across the blogs.

“Sirius Black showed he was capable of murder at the age of sixteen,” he breathed. “You haven’t forgotten that, Headmaster? You haven’t forgotten that he once tried to kill me?”

-Prisoner of Azkaban

At sixteen years old Severus is dead right in the fact Sirius is capable of murder. It’s not a joke at sixteen – in fact at sixteen Sirius could reasonably have been tried as an adult in a crime that lead to a death or the passing of a disease in the event Severus was turned. It is even reasonable to believe Remus would have been culled for his participation – for being a dangerous wizard killer.

At sixteen this is so sinister it changes everything about Sirius into something much darker – and while some people might like that, or choose to ignore it entirely, or opt to brush it off as a light hearted joke Remus got over in a few weeks – I genuinely cannot accept that Remus would want to live with a man who did this to him, that Sirius is cast as a good guy, and that this whole thing was buried by Hogwarts staff as the “silly actions of sixteen year olds” when these are the same people who snap wands on sheer fucking hearsay when dangerous animals and murder happen to be involved.

At thirteen it’s easier to see this as meant harmlessly enough for the adults involved to pull the bullshit they did. It is even possible at thirteen to see Sirius as genuinely wanting nothing more than to scare Severus or at the very least chase him off for good. It’s less likely to be a weaponization of Remus, or a deliberate attempt on Severus’ life because frankly at thirteen it’s easier to see the immediate good result than the long term bad ones. Thirteen we’re angry enough to think of horrible things happening to people but we’re not entirely as responsible when we go forth and do them; thirteen year olds are horrible little shits and that’s a fact, but they are rarely cold hearted murderers.

At sixteen, you certainly can be.

Sirius, at thirteen, was still coming to terms with what being friends with a werewolf evenmeant. He had not yet, at this point, spent years beside Remus trying to find a way to make his life better. He was not yet an illegal animagus, he was not yet immersed in how shit this disease really is. He understood werewolves from a pureblood perspective, which is very bigoted, and his perceptions are rather fucked up.

Remus is his friend, and its cool to be a friend with someone who turns into a monster every month – mom would have a fit if she knew, its a fun little secret, it feeds into his rebellious nature – but it’s not pulling his heartstrings. He isn’t sympathetic or understanding – he hasn’t gotten there yet. At sixteen, he has.

At sixteen Sirius has seen this transformation many times. He understands, intimately, how godawful this disease is. He understands how deeply his friend suffers, how much pain is involved in this, how violent and unforgiving the wolf is. How far from Remus that creature can at times be. He knows, viscerally, how scared Remus is of being seen as a monster.

In other words, by that point in time, he grew up. By that point, he had dedicated himself to becoming an animagus and spent many nights out with a werewolf doing all he could to make the experience positive for his suffering friend. There is no fucking way that sixteen year old Sirius would risk exposing Remus. They are truly, deeply friends by that point and bonded not only in their secret but in blood and crime.

Protecting Remus is part of who Sirius is now, so it doesn’t fit for him to do this after spending years alongside him, seeing his pain and suffering, learning to become an animagus, and running alongside him. It just doesn’t fit, especially not if Sirius is supposed to be a good person, but that’s another argument.

The timeline is changed because Sirius changes with time, as people tend to do. At thirteen, he is ignorant of all the implications of sending Snape into the shack. At sixteen, he is not. nd for that reason, I go for thirteen, because sixteen just doesn’t make sense.

That said, I also do not write Sirius as ever apologizing for this, because it will literally take him years to understand how bad it is and we have no canonical evidence of this being anything other than a “prank” so unless a Remus talks to me, an apology is a divergent element. That said? Sirius doesn’t think he deserves forgiveness for what he did. He acknowledges it was stupid.

But he’s also man enough to admit he doesn’t deserve to be forgiven, just because he was young and dumb, when its literal lives he could have destroyed that night.

SIRIUS BLACK WAS NOT AN INHERENTLY GOOD PERSON

This is not a headcanon this is a fact presented to us repeatedly by the canon texts. I am going to cover some of that evidence and try not to stray too far into headcanon territory but man, I have shit to say about my problematic son.

  • The Blacks are incestuous, direct cousins have straight up married and bred, which is not only morally reprehensible, but also scientifically proven to have impacts both psychological and physical at a genetic level. This impacts Sirius because not only is this the environment he grew up in, it is also something that could tie directly into his own neurodivergences.

    Canonical evidence: Walpurga Black & Orion Black, Sirius parents, are cousins. Their grandfathers were brothers – this makes them first cousins once removed.

  • Sirius’ mother is verbally abusive and emotionally manipulative.Everything else is fan theory, but we do know this much based on his interactions with her portrait and the fact her response to him leaving home was to burn him off the family tapestry, and do the same to her own brother for financially supporting her son after he fled home. Sirius having a terrible homelife has a huge impact on how he behaves and treats other people and not all of those responses are good.

  • The Black family is inherently racist. They marry close and stay within the lines of people with a similar ideology. Marrying people who sympathize with muggles and muggleborns has you disowned entirely; marrying them is even worse. We even know from Sirius himself that this family supported the torture and murder of these groups.

    This is the environment Sirius was brought up in for eleven years and continued to be immersed in every summer until he ran away at 16. Learning to care about minorities isn’t something that he gleaned while living at home and in fact isn’t even presented as a part of his personality profile at all until he has graduated from Hogwarts.

    Even then its debatable whether Sirius truly cared about muggleborns and learned to expand his thinking, or if he is merely the antithesis of Snape in that instead of being surrounded by all the wrong sorts, he was surrounded by all the right and therefore made better choices.

    Sirius learns that judging ones actions based on how they treat their inferiors is important, but that is another headcanon entirely. What matters is that formatively he was brought up in a closed and racist environment that bred problematic ideology into him.

  • We know, canonically, that all rebellion aside Sirius was entitled and bad tempered and would see the torment of another person as sport. This is evidenced not only in targeting Severus Snape, but also Bertram Aubrey ( and while what I have to say about Aubrey is my headcanon, the fact remains in the text that Sirius and James again took on someone who was alone )

    Sirius targeted Severus because he was poor. That first day on the train there were no house rivalries and Lily was not a factor. Sirius took affront to a person who looked as poor as Severus did because he was raised up in a classist society as one of the 1% of hyper rich people and this entitlement is an inherent aspect of who he is whether fandom wishes to acknowledge it or not.  

    Sirius did not have any power at home. Being a bully gave him power he otherwise did not feel he had, but that, too, is more headcanon than text based and for another rant.

  • Sirius spent thirteen years in a cell surrounded by dementors. Turning into a dog likely did not occur to him immediately, but there is enough evidence of him being stunted in his maturity to make it very probable he spent a lot of time being tormented. His sanity was kept by knowing he was innocent, and later, by obsessively wanting to murder someone.

    Note: I have changed the timeline, but canonly. C A N O N L Y Sirius was prepared to use Remus Lupin as a murder weapon at fifteen-sixteen after spending yearsknowing his friend’s secret and learning to become an animagus to help him cope.

    He was ready to 1. Allow his friend to rip a person apart 2. Did not care what this might mean for Remus emotionally or long term, because the chances of Remus being allowed to stay at school after ripping a student apart is slim and 3. Wanted someone he just didn’t like to be killed by a werewolf or alternatively, forced into being one.

    I changed the timeline because of reasons I will discuss in that post, but canonly this alone should be proof enough this man was not mentally hale or a particularly good person. It also shows that murder is something Sirius is prepared to do in canon – and timeline change or no, this is true to my interpretation.

  • Sirius’ relationship with Harry was a mess. Harry needs stability – but Sirius’ arrested development has him making reckless choices ( which Harry cautions him against )and accusing Harry of being ‘less like James’ as a result of being prudent and cautious. Alternatively, whenever Harry was at risk, Sirius had a very ‘do as I say, not as I do’ mentality that contradicted itself.

    Sirius did better with Harry in GOF than he did in OOTP and the reason for this is very simple: in GOF he was a free agent, he was getting healthier, he was open to critique, he was growing. In OOTP he was slammed into his personal hell, chained up once more in a nightmare, and regressing dramatically. He was not well. Keeping him in Grimmauld Place was the cruelest thing that could have been done to him and it showed.  

TL:DR – James matured while he was young. Remus had a lifetime to grow up. Sirius got one year to try and heal before being forced into captivity that did him no favors and exacerbated his issues immensely, ultimately resulting in the reckless decisions that lead to the loss of his life. Sirius Black never got to grow up, he never got to heal, he never got better.

When you see my Sirius behaving kindly, when you see him behaving in ways that are positive and healthy, this is not me erasing his past. This is me taking a divergent path in which he gets the opportunity to grow up.

Alternatively, when you see my Sirius being cruel, being bigoted, being violent, being dangerous – this is canonly supported behavior and I won’t ignore it for the sake of woobifying or shipping him. His problematic aspects are important because in some cases they are reflective of how much he did change and grow before being stunted by Azkaban; in au’s they are things he gets to overcome and address. Nobody is perfect, nobody is without flaws, and Sirius’ flaws are what make him such a striking character – which is why, he will never be portrayed on this blog as what fanon wants. And that’s the tea.

Sirius Black is Tall

pommedeplume:

The facts are these:

“he had forgotten that he was short and skinny and thirteen, whereas Black was a tall, full-grown man” – Prisoner of Azkaban, Ch. 17

“He was rather taller than Snape” – Order of the Phoenix, Ch. 24

“To Sirius’s right stood Pettigrew, more than a head shorter, plump, and watery-eyed” – Deathly Hallows, Ch. 10

“Sirius was tall and handsome and younger by far than Harry had seen him in life.” – Deathly Hallows, Ch. 34

Those are exact canon quotes on the matter of Sirius’s height. They aren’t ambiguous. Sirius is tall.

So, let’s say you’ve seen a post before that shows Remus and Sirius having heights at 6’4” and 5’10” respectively. What about that??? Well, those are the heights from the movies. The movies aren’t canon. I think part of why tumblr got confused was because someone copied their heights from hp wiki whose policy is that EVERYTHING is canon. But everything isn’t canon and Sirius being 5’10” contradicts actual canon because it’s average height, not tall.

Besides. Stop and think about everything the films got wrong or left out. It’s far too much to even list in a single post. But why cherry pick? Why say, “well, this thing that contradicts canon actually overrides canon but all this other stuff doesn’t?” It’s not logically consistent.

Also: No, JKR never said that was their heights. Just like she never said she was going to make Dean and Seamus canon. Fans make shit up and other fans just accept it. Before like it’s common misinformation and debunking it becomes difficult because many people don’t like knowing they are wrong and simply will choose not to believe it. 

And most people who see this post or any other about Sirius Black being tall in the books will ignore it. But I mean… again… the books are clear. This isn’t like “oh it’s open for interpretation.” Dude is tall. Explicitly.

On another post I said:

In particular let’s look at the quotes about Peter and Snape.

The human head (for “men” at least) is 9.4 inches tall.

That means that Peter is possibly under 5′0″ depending on how you want to interpret “more than a head shorter”. Peter is described as short but not tiny.

Next we have Snape. Sirius is “rather taller” so more than a few inches. Do you recall Snape being described as particularly short? If Snape were like 5′4″ HARRY WOULD NOTICE THAT. It would be a feature of Snape’s description and aside from his height Snape is very well described.

I also was alerted to this quote about Peter from POA:

“He was a very short man, hardly taller than Harry and Hermione.”

That pretty well debunks the idea that Peter is super tiny if he’s taller than Harry and Hermione at age 13/14. Average height for a boy at 14 is  5’4.5”. So Peter’s probably somewhere in the 5’3”-5’5 range which makes sense. So, if Peter is more than a head shorter (human male heads are 9.4 on average) that means Sirius HAS to be over 6’0”. Anything else doesn’t make sense. If we take the descriptions literally then Sirius is possibly as tall as 6’4”. But frankly, I don’t know that we need to be THAT literal. The point is: Sirius isn’t short and saying he’s short doesn’t gel with canon at all.

This means for Remus to TOWER over Sirius he’s gotta be like 7’0” which is ROFL ridiculous. He would be that tall guy that everyone notices is really tall. Instead, Sirius is that tall guy that Harry repeatedly notices is tall.

But frankly, I find the idea that Remus even grew to full height to not make a ton of sense. Guy turned into a werewolf on a perpetual cycle during his entire childhood, adolescence and teen years. Stress has a serious negative effect on height and growth.

So here’s what we know:

1. Peter is probably around 5’4” give or take an inch.

2. Sirius is more than a head taller Peter (at least 6’4” if taken literally)

3. Remus’s height isn’t described. Could he be taller than Sirius? I guess, but it stretches plausibility as he would have to be RIDICULOUSLY TALL. And then you have to figure out why no one ever mentioned it or noticed it. If you think someone being 7’0” is commonplace… you’re wrong. When you meet someone who is that tall YOU TAKE NOTICE.

Sirius Black being short is fanon. Sirius Black is tall. It’s not up for debate. If you like the fanon of him being short EMBRACE IT. But don’t perpetuate misinformation. I’m tired of being the person who sticks the books only to have people who have forgotten the books lecture me about what I got wrong. It’s ridiculous.

COGNITIVE ASSESSMENT: SIBYLL TRELAWNEY

BOLD what your muse often experiences.
ITALICIZE what your muse only sometimes experiences.
STRIKE what your muse would never experience.
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SYBILL DURING THE BATTLE OF HOGWARTS

This is your friendly reminder that Sibyll was not idle during the Battle of Hogwarts, but rather turned her crystal balls into projectiles. She not only utilized them to bring down enemies – she did so without needing to see where they were.

Sibyll turned crystal balls into heat seeking missiles of cranial destruction with a simple wave of her wand. She is someone who deserves to be taken seriously in the magic department, though she is perfectly content to conceal her capabilities.

And yes, this is canon:

COOKING SHERRY VS. RUM

I accept that Sibyll drinks but not in front of students, the books can stuff it on that to be totally blunt. Like it says on my girl’s page:

She is a functioning alcoholic and this will be addressed in threads on occasion – please note functioning. She does not get drunk around her students, contrary to canon situations, nor will she have a devolution arc where her drinking gets toxic.

That said IDK if a kid would know the difference between one booze and another so there’s that. I mean kids with alcoholic parents might but I can’t recall there being too much evidence of that with the Dursleys so honestly yeah I’m gonna forget all about Harry noticing cooking sherry and stick to the fact my girl drinks spiced rum and if she’s feeling a bit wild she’ll throw in a firewhiskey chaser.  

A DEEPER LOOK INTO THE THIRD EYE

An important thing to understand about Sibyll’s gift is that it is cruel and unpredictable. It first struck when she was just a child – this is something that has run in her family for generations and for some it comes later and milder. The ones who suffer most are those destined to live through war ( such as her grandmother, who survived both the first and second world wars ) while her mother was brought up in a more peaceful time her visions were far less persistent and so, she was able to pass off as being untouched by the power.

The night terrors that haunted Sibyll from the time she was five years old told the Trelawney family very clearly that she was a portent to terrible things due to come. Each one had ways of coping with it or pretending they simply did not know what it meant, but at the end of the day Sibyll had to build her own coping mechanisms and defenses from the violent visages that would visit her without warning – and as she aged, it was not just a nightly matter, but rather something that could cause her to break down in the middle of the day.

She had no choice but to find a way to conceal what was happening, what she was seeing – and in the end she chose to shroud herself in drama so that when she simply could not hold something back, it wouldn’t be as damaging to those around her.

Because Sibyll must vocalize her predictions – in some form. She can obscure them in her own way, so long as they are verbalized. If she does not find a way to give them life, they will hound her again and again until they spill past her lips in their rawest forms.

A prime example of this can be seen with the prophesy regarding the Longbottoms and Potters – she wished to hold it back, fearing that if it came out to the world, Voldemort would find way to bring it to fruition, but if it was never spoken perhaps both families could be spared; it haunted her relentlessly for months before she met with Albus and had no choice left. She had to address it in a way he would believe – and this is easier than one might think, when she shrouds all other prophesy in what appears to be little more than attention seeking dramatics.

However, the incident with Harry was different. That was a trance vision, and those come very rarely and usually only when the stars are in very specific alignments. That was her first time in about a decade, and her forgetfulness of it is honest – it was an omen, not a vision, so it did not need to entrap her mind.

The thing is, Sibyll knows what is coming but she never knows enough to stop it – and she sometimes only sees certain elements of what is coming, enough to know deep in her gut when something is wrong or something is coming. She shrouds the truth for the sake of others, but she has mastered the art of ‘true prophesy’ behind her Cassandra-mask for when it is dire, such as with Albus.

CONCERNING CURSEBREAKING AS A CAREER

Mun Note: This is an overview of Bill’s profession as portrayed on my blog, and is  NOT  strictly canonical, it is headcanon. Please do not take this as anything more than how  I  run Bill’s profession.

There’s a minimum E requirement on a good handful of O.W.L. scores for curse breaking, though sometimes the goblins in charge will overlook one or two of them if they are made up for in the N.E.W.T. section and you pass the application examination.

Compulsory course wise, you’ll need N.E.W.T.’s of E or higher in Charms, Defense Against the Dark Arts, Transfiguration and Potions. If you didn’t have Arithmancy, Ancient Runes, and Ancient Studies in your electives during your O.W.L. year, don’t fret it too much – there is still a chance you’ll be able to make it as a curse breaker if you have the right mindset.

One of the greatest complaints of the goblins in charge of the curse breaking teams that work for Gringotts lies in the amount of applicants dropping out of the two year training program. This is due to so many of them being under the impression that curse breaking is some sort of Auror-related position in which spells are created and dismantled.

This was something that had confused Bill for the longest time until he realized those people thought that curse breaking was about breaking newly made curses, as opposed to solving the puzzles left behind by those seeking to guard their treasures with tricks and magic.

The profession is as much about the literal breaking of curses as it is the solving of all manner of puzzles, from mechanical to logical, from encoded ciphers to living labyrinths ( Never fun, especially in Egypt ) which was why Bill finds it so fascinating.

Fun Fact: Bill had actually been referred to the job from the Auror program, and knew very little about it when he started up!

Nowadays, Bill has no idea why Curse-Breaking wasn’t as popular a topic as the Auror program, considering the fact that it has just as much danger attached as Dark Wizard catching does ( if not more, as when he started his job it was a time of peace and there were not a whole lot of Dark Wizards running about to catch! )

Sure, the wizards Bill deals with were long since dead, but the things they left behind sure as heck weren’t, and half the time, that could be even worse than dealing with someone in a duelling situation; at least when you were fighting someone, you didn’t have to think about it on six to seven levels. Duelling was a three tiered action at most for Bill, and he liked to think of himself as a dab hand as a duellist.

”Curse-Breaking is one of the more entertaining jobs in the Ministry, I can tell you that much – but its also fairly dangerous. You need to be able to think on your toes and you definitely need to have a knack for figuring things out. Most of the curses we end up working with are more along the lines of really archaic puzzles,” Bill pointed out, knowing how more than one recruit had been turned off by the idea of brain-teasers day in and day out that could lead to loss of limb if you messed up on them.

[Quote from 08/2012]

To Bill, curse breaking is Merlin’s gift to the puzzle-lover. It’s what drew him in, locked him down, and kept him loyal for years. He never really was one for desk work, and curse breaking not only keeps his mind at work at all times, but it has him on his toes, keeps his wandwork quick and steady, and is honestly the most fun he has had outside of Hogwarts.

A lot of people out there hate their jobs, and a lot of others just sort of trudge along through them, but Bill has never met a curse breaker who didn’t absolutely love their job. There were times on excursions when he would live on Pepper-Up so he wouldn’t have to sleep – not because it was required, but because everything they were doing was so exciting the idea of missing any of it was horrifying.

Note: The goblins found out about it. Bill wasn’t the only one on the team doing it, and those who were caught were penalized as it’s not safe work practice! Don’t do this – Bill learned from his intern days that goblin penalizations are almost as bad as his mother’s howlers. 10/10 do not recommend.

Aside from a relatively high pay grade ( part of the danger pay vaults curse breakers into a higher bracket than most professions ) one of the perks of the job is that the curse breakers are often allowed to pick a thing or two from the tombs to keep, so long as its deemed invaluable by their goblin supervisor. Meaning no gold or gems, no priceless art or vases, but ancient scrolls and puzzles, old tools, unusual boxes and queer blades are often allowed to go home with crew members!

“I’ve got a pretty wicked knife at home that we got from one of our first excursions – drives my mother batty every time she sees it. The handle carving is a bit risqué.”

IN REGARD TO GOBLINS

Mun Note: These are NPC’s that I’ve developed alongside Bill rather accidentally. The fact is goblins are a huge part of his life and they, like people, have their own names and personalities. These are the ones most likely to be mentioned in Bill’s threads. They aren’t interactive – they’re usually just background material but hey, if you want to interact with a goblin feel free to send a message in I guess.

Gurnuk:
Bill’s old supervisor in Egypt. In pre-HBP threads he’s the one dictating where Bill will be excavating and what he’ll be doing while he is there, but for the most part isn’t too terribly present.

A benevolent and far-seeing dictator, Gurnuk is probably older than anyone you’ve ever met, and has a short-wick temper with people who think showboating and cheap tricks will get them anywhere in this business. He is fond of Bill ( in his own way ) and tends to set Bill in charge of newbies because Bill can relate to them better, but has ‘a goblin’s temper’ when they behave foolishly, which is very much appreciated.

According to Gurnuk, taking a desk job was a waste of Bill’s uses ( As good a compliment as any from a goblin ) and he ought to be perfectly capable of monitoring ‘useless quill pushing’ whilst doing more ‘worthwhile’ things with his time. Which was a blessing in disguise for Bill, because it meant his old boss was rather consistently sending him puzzles to solve and send back through various goblin connections.

Working in the Goblin Liaison office filled Bill with a sense of restlessness that not even pranking the goblins could alleviate very long. He did his best to hide the shiftlessness he felt from his family, not for a second wanting any of them to feel as though he didn’t want to be home. Bill had known when he accepted the position that it was going to be mind-numbingly dull, but in the end he had been the one to ask for it.

Complaining would just lose him what little respect the goblins had for him – so he knew that this was something he would just have to tough out quietly ( regardless of how sound his reasons had been when he took up the position ) So the first box from Gurnuk was a godsend – and they just kept coming. His communications with his old supervisor and the work he did for him ‘under the table’ both kept him sane, lined his pockets and secured him a fantastic position as a team leader when he returned to Egypt after the war.

Jorfnik:
Bill’s supervisor in the Goblin Liaison Office, also likely older than anyone you’ve ever met. Jorfnik is gruff and grumpy by human standards, but Bill knows enough about goblins to recognize him as quite affable and almost paternal in a very goblin fashion.

Jorfnik has a habit of getting attention from folk by jabbing them with the pointy end of a quill, which doesn’t win him any favors from humans – even when more often than not, whatever he needs them for will spare them tons of trouble later. It’s a small pain for a very big gain, and Bill sees it as evening out in its own way.

Because Bill was so stressed during this time period, he was actually a lot more forgetful than he was known to be in Egypt. His hand and side were jabbed frequently, but for all the little pricks and pains, he has Jorfnik to thank for the fact he never missed a meeting and was never home late for dinner.

Chasa:
Chasa is Bill’s liaison between Gringotts-England and Gringotts-Egypt. When something new comes in from Gurnuk, she is the one who summons him ( or brings the delivery over herself should she be of a mind to shake him up for a meal; Bill’s spent more money taking her to various diners in Diagon Alley than he has any date in the whole of his life, and honestly he wouldn’t have it any other way )

Once Bill solves his latest problem from Gurnuk, he contacts the bank and delivers matters to Chasa himself. If there is any payout to be made, it usually just shows up mysteriously in his vault and as ever, he asks no questions and there are no explanations granted.

However, more than once the ‘payments’ have been things he noted and considered for his family – and several of them being things Chasa wasn’t even present for him mulling over. Still, he knows it’s her – it’d be too uncanny for anything else!